Alfred Prufrock Suffered from Self-Awareness Disorder Which Led Him to Social Anxiety

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questions of self and meaning in a universal context. In "The Love Song Alfred Prufrock," the narrator struggles with questions of meaning within not only society but also existence itself. He wonders: "Do I dare disturb the universe?"

Literature review
The term stream of consciousness, otherwise known as the inner monologue, characterizes the continuous flow of thoughts and consciousness in the waking mind. It is a way of telling or narrating a character's thought process either in a loose inner monologue or in relation to actions. Sang (2010) mentioned that stream of consciousness is a technique that captures, without the author's involvement, the entire mental process of a character in which perception is mixed with consciousness, semi-conscious thoughts, memories, feelings, and associations. In literature, stream of consciousness refers to the flow of these thoughts, referring to a particular person's thought process. A stream of consciousness is a literary style used to present a narrative in the form of a character's thoughts rather than using dialogue. The thought process in the character's mind is never practical, and it hops from one idea to another. In modern times, this method was used by T. S. Eliot in his poem Prufrock. After the First World War, men came out of this war disappointed by what they saw, did, and suffered. Stream-ofconsciousness technology better captures these people's experiences. The first writers who used this technique of "stream-of-consciousness " are Édouard Desjardins, Dorothy, Richardson in Pilgrimage , Virginia Woolf in Mrs. Dalloway (1925), to the Lighthouse (1927) William Faulkner in Part One of The Sound and the Fury (1929), for long segments found in George Meredith, Henry James and James Joyce in Ulysses (1922). In 1918, Sinclair first applied the term stream of consciousness in a literary context while discussing Dorothy Richardson's novel. Stream of consciousness was a phrase William used in his Principles of Psychology (1890). James describes the continuous flow of concepts, ideas and feelings in the waking mind.
According to Tara (2022), self-awareness is necessary to maintain our sense of self and to navigate complex social interactions. For instance, in a conversation at a social gathering, we need to be aware of our thoughts and feelings, so we can decide whether or not to share them. We also need to be aware of how others are perceiving us and reacting to what we are saying. However, certain habits of self-awareness can make us self-conscious.
According to Myoclonic web (2022), Self-consciousness has two forms: people who are internally selfconscious have an elevation of internal self-awareness, which has both pros and cons. Those people are more aware of their feelings and beliefs, so they stick to their personal values because they are aware of how their actions make them feel. People tend to focus on their negative inner situations like annoying thoughts and body feelings. These negative inner situations grow through heavy internal focus and lead to increased stress and anxiety.
The second type of individual is one who exhibits elevated external (or public) self-awareness and is externally self-conscious. They typically worry that others will evaluate them based on their appearance or behavior since they are more likely to focus on how others see them. They thus tend to follow group standards and steer clear of scenarios where they can come out as inferior or ashamed. In order to avoid appearing foolish and mistaken in front of others, they might not take risks or try new things. Social anxiety is a condition in which people worry about how other people will see them and can also be brought on by external self-awareness. Chronic social anxiety disorder can be brought on by ongoing acute public shyness. External self-awareness is the second kind. People with anxiety disorders have acute, excessive, and worry and fear about everyday situations. Anxiety disorders involve repeated episodes of sudden feelings of extreme anxiety and fear or terror that reach a peak within minutes (panic attacks). These feelings of anxiety and phobia interfere with daily activities, are difficult to control, are out of proportion to the actual danger and can last a long time. People may avoid places or situations to prevent these feelings. Generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder (social phobia), specific phobias, and separation anxiety disorder are examples of anxiety disorders. All these symptoms lead to pessimism which captures Prufrock's character in this poem.

Material and Methods
This study uses the descriptive and analytical method to achieve the purpose of the study to show how T.S. Eliot reflect the idea of self-consciousness as one of the aspects of modernism in his poem: "The Love Song Alfred Prufrock"

Result and Discussion
This objective study highlights the situation that the speaker who suffered from self-consciousness disorder during this era. Consciousness is defined as the state of awareness of the self and environment with appropriate arousal or wakefulness (Giacino et al., 2018). Disorders of consciousness (DoC) are a wide spectrum of correlates of the brain's disruptions of arousal and awareness that may result from altered functional neural activities from cortico-cortical connectivity to sub cortico-cortical and global connectivity of all networks such as default mode network (DMN) and others (Giacino et al., 2014;Hodelìn-Tablada, 2016). This may justify that the narrator of the poem also suffered from mental disease. The poem of the love song of Prurfrok is started with quotation from Dante which is a style used by modern poets: S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse Am an attendant lord, one that will do 105.
To swell a progress, start a scene or two, 106.
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool, 107.
Deferential, glad to be of use, 108.
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse; I do not think that they will sing to me. 118.
I have seen them riding seaward on the waves 119.
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back 120.
When the wind blows the water white and black. 121.
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea 122.
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown 123.
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.
Before beginning the analysis of the poem, it is very clear that T.S. Eliot started his poem by making a direct quotation from Dante's Inferno in Italian. Eliot was known to have been a radical of Dante, and this quotation indicates that the poem belonged to modernism in which borrowing is one of the aspects of modern poetry. "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" is a poem written by a prominent poet T.S. Eliot was published in 1915. This poem focuses on the themes of alienation, fragmentation, isolation, and the diminishing power of traditional sources of authority which is considered to be one of the essential publications of the modern era in the 20th century. The poem is a dramatic monologue in which the speaker narrates what he believed were the anxieties and preoccupations of his inner life. According to Leichsenring and Leweke (2017), social disorder is characterized by an intense fear of social situation in which person anticipated being evaluated negatively. Prufrock's problem is not that he is confined, but that he thinks that he knows that he is confined, and it is that terrible awareness or consciousness which are the same. The confused thoughts and feelings that flow through his monologue controlled him. This problem is what philosophers called an epistemological one-an intellectual problem, in which there are conflicts in dealing with both what is known, and how it has come to be known. If readers cannot easily make sense of what Prufrock is saying, it is because he cannot make sense of it himself. In "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock", Eliot makes his own style by striking readers with strong imagery that is used in his poem. The poet is starting his poem with that image of the patient anesthetized on an operating table although he does not tell us where Prufrock is. He does not even start to guide us through the narrative. Although the description of "certain half-deserted streets" on which trade "one-night cheap hotels" and sawdust restaurants" -in London. it is clear that at this point that Eliot's protagonist becomes "an urban wanderer." The narrator through dramatic monologue tries describing the shabby corners of the streets in the city, the cheap hotels and restaurants, nightclubs, tea-house and some clubs that he used to go to. The description of these shabby places in the city reflects his pessimistic view which is a result of external self-awareness. He frequently met some women there and chatted with them. He hesitated, not daring to sit with women sitting at a separate table with his back turned. This showed that he is suffering from external awareness disorder. As T.S. Eliot described Prufrock as a modern-day urban speaker, who talks clearly about his failures: chiefly, his failure to 'grasp the nettle' or 'seize the day', his lack of sexual fulfillment and his overall sense of setback man who did not participate in any issue because he felt shy and had a fear of being scummy while speaking something and was bashful about what he wore; this made him tacky in the eyes of people. The researcher believes the narrator in addition to his social anxiety suffers from sexual disorders. This is proved in these lines and line 62 especially proved that the narrator has good self-awareness. When we talk about coffee spoons, it is like the boring flow of his boring life. The rhythm of the daily activity of making a cup of coffee repeats as he gets older. Prufrock thinks he doesn't have much time to do his activities in life, so he just keeps doing what he was doing. The spoons symbolize a repetitive activity similar to stirring coffee. "Coffee Spoons" has the meaning of repeating Prufrock's activities every day and then struggling with his regret that he had not consciously used the elapsed time. Repetition means monotony that leads to depression and frustration, and they are manifestations of the modern movement. Also, measuring all his life with two coffee spoons, and that coffee symbolizes the blackness that indicates darkness and gloom that lead us to pessimism; this is the case for all those who lived through this era after the First World War. Self -consciousness disorder is very clear in Prufrock character that imagines himself only as he sees how others think of him. Is he getting thin? Is his hair getting thin? Does his tie look all right? This self-consciousness would be possible, as the reader/ listener is exposed to imagine except that Prufrock wishes not to connect with this society that limits his behavior. This is embodied for him in the behavior of women who seem to judge him but ignore him. If he were saying that he was Lazarus who had risen from the dead and had the ability to tell them the most amazing truths. He could not see any woman agree to speak Eliot tries to devalue Prufrock's anxiety a simple piece of fruit confounds him. He has to overcome his feelings of sexual inadequacy, and his worry that his balding head and thin physique gain him the disdain of women. In its last portrait of singing mermaids who take the speaker to his destruction, finally, the repetition of the phrase the overwhelming question alludes to James Fennimore Cooper's novel The Pioneers (1823) which is one of Eliot's favorite books as a child and the place in which that phrase first appears.
The effect of these very frequent allusions is often to give the impression of negative comparison. The speaker feels that he is inadequate and diminished in comparison with the "greatness" of figures like John the Baptist or Hamlet. His own head, if served on a platter like John the Baptist, would be "slightly bald"; he asserts that if he appeared in Hamlet, he would be a petty "attendant lord" or even a "Fool." These self-deprecations show how the speaker in the poem feels self-disrespected by comparing himself to these things. The speaker feels alienated from these literary greats even as he alludes to them, suggesting that the speaker's sense of isolation from the world.
The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" is considered one of the fundamental modernist poems, which is able to reflect the social and intellectual status of the early 20th century. The poem emphasizes that modernity comes with a constant sense of alienation and isolation from others. The speaker of the poem is an example of a man who indicates the modern status that results in feeling alienated, depressed and pessimistic about the world.

Conclusion
T.S Eliot presents Prufrock's dilemma as a typical modern man devoid of the ideals of the Romantic and Victorian periods. He lived in a world that lacked all ideals. Alfred Prufrock is a good speaker who tells us through a monologue about his awareness of his shortcomings. He describes to us the condition that he lives as if he lives in an urban where humans show no sympathy. Prufrock hesitates to express himself. The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock makes the readers think of the persona as the prototype of humans. This reflects his psyche and psychological disturbance. It is proven from his confession that although he suffered from self-awareness disorder although he has an open mind intellect, he was touchy, oversensitive, sexually disturbed, hesitated, alienated, isolated, and self-aware and this led him to have social anxiety, and this resulted in being pessimistic, isolated and alienated from the society.